I can waste more time than I should ever admit to. Is anyone else like that? I need to have a computer free day. Where do I sign up for realtor.com anonymous? One link leads to another and another and another. The really stupid thing is that probably none of the houses I'm looking at will be available when I need it.
I've got all kinds of projects going on around here. Do I sound a little ADD or what? I went out an bought paint today to freshen up. I had taken a piece of sheet rock in to be color matched and I was really excited in the store when the man showed me how well he matched it. I also bought some semi-gloss of the same color to freshen up my pantry shelves. Opened it tonight...pure white. He hadn't tinted it. Another trip to the store tomorrow. Yea!
I went by the school today. I have to start back in less than a month. The routine of that is good for me, but I'm not looking forward to it. I also don't look forward to keeping the secret that we will be moving. I hate not knowing a time line.
We went to see our son this weekend. Our handsome boy. He really looked good. We had a nice visit. The last 15 minutes of it though totally broke my heart...one more time. We were chatting and all of a sudden he just got quiet and sadly said "I miss you guys so much." It was almost like he was thinking out loud. A very simple statement that meant so much. He always tries to put on the brave face. He usually doesn't let us see how very hard that part is on him. He opens up in his letters, but just tells us not to worry when we are face to face. We keep trying to look ahead until next year. He has many, many more challenges ahead of him. Right now though I just ache to hold him.
Later.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
It's just my opinion. Welcome to it.
Anyone watch the special about the Jackson family? It makes me so sad and, at the same time, mad. Although I was a huge fan of his music, I have to say I was not a big fan of MJ the person. But after watching his father, Joe Jackson, use this time to promote himself on TV, I have to feel sorry for all of the Jackson family. What an obnoxious slime ball! He's pond scum! He's slimey hot dog water! I've heard the stories about him being abusive, but the man is nuts. How can someone use their children like that in the name of love? It's more like the name of money. What an example of the evil of the "love of money".
It seems to me that maybe those three little children were the one place that MJ tried to get it right. My heart breaks for them. They are innocent and so vulnerable. Seems like MJ did try to give them a childhood in the middle of such insanity. He obviously gave them lots of love and attention.
The documentary brought out that Kathryn Jackson is already raising five of her grandchildren. What's that about? She seems like a nice lady and I know she has all of the help that money can buy, but that it is huge undertaking for anyone, much less for a 79 year old woman. She needs to be grand mothering, not mothering. She may be the only stable Jackson, but where are their parents? Are they too busy with plastic surgeons to take responsibility for their own?
And while I'm at it, there is Debbie Rowe. Her lack of a maternal instinct is just foreign to me. I just don't get her story. I deal with trying to help my sons understand their birthparents and not feel rejected, but she is a whole other subject. Probably good that they don't have much of a relationship with her. How do you make sense of that one? Years of intense therapy ahead.
Once again, children have fallen victim to selfishness, narcissism and ignorance. It happens every day to the famous and the not so famous. I feel ashamed of all the times that I have taken for granted or not been thankful enough for my own children and also to have had imperfect parents that loved me dearly.
Of course, if you use Joe Jackson as the measure....I'm a fabulous parent!
Hug your kids.
Later.
It seems to me that maybe those three little children were the one place that MJ tried to get it right. My heart breaks for them. They are innocent and so vulnerable. Seems like MJ did try to give them a childhood in the middle of such insanity. He obviously gave them lots of love and attention.
The documentary brought out that Kathryn Jackson is already raising five of her grandchildren. What's that about? She seems like a nice lady and I know she has all of the help that money can buy, but that it is huge undertaking for anyone, much less for a 79 year old woman. She needs to be grand mothering, not mothering. She may be the only stable Jackson, but where are their parents? Are they too busy with plastic surgeons to take responsibility for their own?
And while I'm at it, there is Debbie Rowe. Her lack of a maternal instinct is just foreign to me. I just don't get her story. I deal with trying to help my sons understand their birthparents and not feel rejected, but she is a whole other subject. Probably good that they don't have much of a relationship with her. How do you make sense of that one? Years of intense therapy ahead.
Once again, children have fallen victim to selfishness, narcissism and ignorance. It happens every day to the famous and the not so famous. I feel ashamed of all the times that I have taken for granted or not been thankful enough for my own children and also to have had imperfect parents that loved me dearly.
Of course, if you use Joe Jackson as the measure....I'm a fabulous parent!
Hug your kids.
Later.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Here I am.....there I go.
No, I didn't drop off the face of the earth...I just thought about it. I've tried to keep up with everyone whether just reading or reading and commenting.
We got back in late last night from our family reunion. We had such a great time. Many of our nieces and nephews are now young adults and they are entirely cool. I just love spending time with them. Most of the 22 of us were staying in this sprawling log cabin on 8 acres that my sis-in-law owns. One nephew brought an RV and there were a couple of hotel rooms. There was boating, jet skies, ping pong, softball, cut-throat board game competitions, fireworks, good food, way too much to drink, lots of laughs, lots of love and very little sleep. It doesn't get much better.
I came very close to not being able to go though. I developed a pretty severe sinus infection and effected my inner ear and equilibrium. I passed out Sunday morning but then was fine in the afternoon. Monday and Tuesday were totally different. I was reeling and vomiting. It was miserable. I couldn't lay down or move my head. My esophagus was ripped from stomach acids. (TMI? Hey, I've listened to all your PMS and poop stories!!) Anywho, Hub took me to the doctor on Tuesday. She gave me a shot and 3 scripts and sent me home. I couldn't drive on (or off for that matter) the medicine. Hub was determined that we would still leave on Wednesday. He did most of the packing (SHOCK!) and all of the driving and we headed out after lunch on Wednesday. Gradually, the dizziness subsided with just an occasional spell. A truly dizzy blonde. Hee-hee!
It was confirmed last Monday that we will be moving. The questions of when and exactly where, etc. have yet to be determined, but we know we are going. We will probably land somewhere close to Little Rock, AR just because of the major highways. "When" will be determined by us getting this house on the market and sold. Luckily, we are not under pressure to be there NOW. Our relo package is good for a year but we will be moving forward with it. I wish I could wiggle my nose and it would be over.
We stopped over for a night in Arkansas on the way to the family reunion and looked at a few houses. It is a beautiful area and the cool evenings were a welcomed relief from our 100+ days.
I'm sure this will be a good move for our family but it seems so very strange to think about it. First, I'm such a Texan. I mean REALLY a Texan and we are planning this to be our last move. We want to be prepared to stay in this house until our son graduates and we retire. No pressure. Also, we have been here for 9-1/2 years. When we moved here, I had two sons in our home and my baby was two. A lot has changed. It will probably be a good thing for our older son to come home to a different area, yet I feel so sad about doing the move without him. It feels like he won't have his place with us. He may not due to his own choosing or actions, but this house is still "home" to him. It's where he dreams of coming back to. Unfortunately, he still has one more year to go.
Life takes such strange turns. I know that God has the Plan and road map, but right now I just feel I've lost my way a bit.
Later.
We got back in late last night from our family reunion. We had such a great time. Many of our nieces and nephews are now young adults and they are entirely cool. I just love spending time with them. Most of the 22 of us were staying in this sprawling log cabin on 8 acres that my sis-in-law owns. One nephew brought an RV and there were a couple of hotel rooms. There was boating, jet skies, ping pong, softball, cut-throat board game competitions, fireworks, good food, way too much to drink, lots of laughs, lots of love and very little sleep. It doesn't get much better.
I came very close to not being able to go though. I developed a pretty severe sinus infection and effected my inner ear and equilibrium. I passed out Sunday morning but then was fine in the afternoon. Monday and Tuesday were totally different. I was reeling and vomiting. It was miserable. I couldn't lay down or move my head. My esophagus was ripped from stomach acids. (TMI? Hey, I've listened to all your PMS and poop stories!!) Anywho, Hub took me to the doctor on Tuesday. She gave me a shot and 3 scripts and sent me home. I couldn't drive on (or off for that matter) the medicine. Hub was determined that we would still leave on Wednesday. He did most of the packing (SHOCK!) and all of the driving and we headed out after lunch on Wednesday. Gradually, the dizziness subsided with just an occasional spell. A truly dizzy blonde. Hee-hee!
It was confirmed last Monday that we will be moving. The questions of when and exactly where, etc. have yet to be determined, but we know we are going. We will probably land somewhere close to Little Rock, AR just because of the major highways. "When" will be determined by us getting this house on the market and sold. Luckily, we are not under pressure to be there NOW. Our relo package is good for a year but we will be moving forward with it. I wish I could wiggle my nose and it would be over.
We stopped over for a night in Arkansas on the way to the family reunion and looked at a few houses. It is a beautiful area and the cool evenings were a welcomed relief from our 100+ days.
I'm sure this will be a good move for our family but it seems so very strange to think about it. First, I'm such a Texan. I mean REALLY a Texan and we are planning this to be our last move. We want to be prepared to stay in this house until our son graduates and we retire. No pressure. Also, we have been here for 9-1/2 years. When we moved here, I had two sons in our home and my baby was two. A lot has changed. It will probably be a good thing for our older son to come home to a different area, yet I feel so sad about doing the move without him. It feels like he won't have his place with us. He may not due to his own choosing or actions, but this house is still "home" to him. It's where he dreams of coming back to. Unfortunately, he still has one more year to go.
Life takes such strange turns. I know that God has the Plan and road map, but right now I just feel I've lost my way a bit.
Later.
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