Hello....It's me!

WOW!  July 3 was the last time I wrote anything.  Surprising, but at the same time, maybe not so much. 

Still living in Arkansas; still married.  Hoping to leave Arkansas; hoping to stay married.  Actually, after many ups and downs, Hub and I are in a better place and I am just anxious for us to live under the same roof again.  I think we have many years of "fighting it out" left in us; in a normal married kind of way.  :)  

There has been a little flurry of home showings lately.  Weather is gorgeous this week which has brought out some but a couple of weeks ago we got a call in the middle of a huge thunderstorm that someone wanted to see our house in 30 minutes.  We got in the car and drove down the street.  They were a bit late as a huge tree was blown over and blocking the street.  That kind of storm.  Those people are supposedly still interested in our home but I say "show me the money".  Got an email that the couple that looked at it today want to come back and look again tomorrow.  Prayers appreciated. 

Is anyone else a bit obsessed with X Factor and The Voice?  Just like with Idol, I think I probably enjoy the auditions most of all.  It is so cool to watch people living their real live Cinderella and Cinderfella moments.  Of course, there are those who just want to get on camera for their 15 seconds and then there are the ones that you wonder if the disappointment is going to lead them to be serial killers or something.   Someone needs to care enough to tell them before they get up there that they can't sing.  Seriously.  I've also never seen 13 year old girls with so much stage presence, confidence and talent.  Wow!

Can't talk about X-Factor without mentioning Ms.Brittany.  The bubble gum pop princess seems to be growing up.  Either that are she is finally on the right medication.  She looks so much like her mother with blond hair.   I just find her interesting as her speaking voice is about an octave lower and she applauds like the Queen of England.  Watch her.  Anyway, she is doing good; still a bit of a diva but interesting.  Demi Lovado is cute and a nice fresh opinion.  She handles Simon well.

#1 is still being #1.  Currently, he is in jail in Phoenix awaiting sentencing on the 28th.  He has been offered a plea bargain for 3 years prison and 3 years probation.  Once again, this has probably saved his life for now.  He desperately needs a time out and I just pray that he grows and matures and wakes up during this time.  He will be 27 when he gets out and he really needs to start his life.  Can't do it for him but it doesn't stop me from hurting for him.  I was encouraged that he finally seems to have realized that his thinking is just not right and he's tired of his decisions (or the lack thereof).  He asked to see a counsellor and they have diagnosed him as bi-polar.  Doctors have been talking about that all of his life.  In my humble opinion, not sure if that is correct but he does have so many issues that who knows what is predominant.  What I do know is that I have not seen him since last Thanksgiving and that I miss him like crazy.  I just want him to do good and have a happy, honest life. 

#2 and I are doing pretty well together.  He thinks he is the "man of the house" these days.  I love to see it when he steps up but then there are times that I have to bring him back to the reality that I'm the parent and he is the child.  Can't seem to convince him that diabetes is here to stay and that he has to keep logs, etc. so that he can be treated.  He's good at taking his insulin, but doesn't check his blood to see if he needs to make a correction.  I've had to call the hospital twice during the past 3 weeks.  Scary stuff!

Hub will be home next Thursday.  He actually will be here for this weekend and the next with a business meeting in Kansas in between.  #2 will turn 15 in two weeks so he wanted to be here around then. We will have been apart for almost a month.  That is the longest in all of our 29-1/2 years of marriage.  A month is WAY too long.  I'm looking forward to him being home.

I have turned into pretty much a recluse.  I've really been fighting depression with all of this.  It is so easy to fall into with all of this frustration.  I was telling my rent-a-friend (my counsellor) about it the other day.  I think the fact that we had so many gray, rainy days in a row didn't help matters as all.  The days are gorgeous now.  If I can get this house sold, I'm sure that the fog will lift.

I went back this week for my 6-month boob followup.  After scaring me with talk of other spots showing up on the mammogram they decided that everything is still the same and I'm good for another 6 months.  They want to follow up for two years.   Not sure if that is happening.  I think I will be busy.  Actually, Scarlet will just have to think about this tomorrow.

Need to go now and live some more life.

Later.