Confusion

I don’t even know where to start.  So much going on.  So much confusion.

v  Diabetes:   #2 still has it.  He is already getting sloppy with taking his insulin.  I know that at 14 it is hard to stop and do something different than the other kids.  I realize that it can be inconvenient.  But he has to do this.  I don’t think that I can sit back and let him face the consequences on this one.  His doctor’s had told him that diabetes medication is an art form rather than a direct science.   He has taken that statement to a whole other level.  There are formulas to figure out how much your body needs.  You have to count up how much carbs you eat.  You have to take your big bedtime dose.  A man at our church told him how he has had Type 1 JD for over 30 years and has had to have surgery on his eyes three different times due to not following directions.  Really working on getting his attention on this one.

v  #1:  That’s REALLY hard to say.  He is still in AZ.  He is now living with/off some guy.  Still no job but he called today and has one for next week.  Our counselor suggested that we have a memorial service for him as the son that we once knew probably will never be back.  Can you imagine my face when he told us that?   The reasoning was is that we are in constant fear and mourning for him.   He thought it would bring some closure.   I look at the pictures of my beautiful boy.   It’s just so hard to comprehend…..

v  Boobs:   Still have boobs.  Probably should go ahead and have biopsy done instead of waiting until August appointment.

v  Marriage:  Sill married.  Still making progress.   Still fighting it out.  Still hanging in and on.  Still going to two counselors.  Hub’s counselor wanted me to come with him last time.  Have to say I’m really impressed with her.   Given time, I could see some real progress being made with her.  Our marriage counselor is good, too.  We are making progress.  I just wish this was later and that I felt more secure in our union.

v  Job:   My job ended with tax season.  The last day of packing up, reports and hosting a party almost did me in.   I’m looking for a full-time job.  I had an interview with the school district yesterday for a really good job in the administration office.  Just have to wait and see if we are going to be moving.  Hub’s company is in the middle of a HUGE shakeup.  New president; new vice presidents; new territory alignments, and oh yes, 350 layoffs in field and corporate.   Rumors are swirling.  One of them being that Hub’s position is being eliminated and restructured.   Nothing is going to be firm until May 15^th but his regional called every one of her district managers and suggested that they spend the next two weeks looking for jobs.  Soooooooo, here we go.  Hub has had three calls from the the territory HR guy.  (One being on Sunday right after church was over.  Weird!)  They have asked if he would consider another DM position and then wanted to know if we were relocatable.  (Hell to the yes if it means a job!)   Anyway, on the last call he gave him 5 cities and asked him to rank his interest.  We were getting pretty excited until we found out that he was just gathering info to turn in to corporate.   So it’s not bad news, but it’s not necessarily the good news that we thought it was.  Really scary weeks ahead.  Please add us to your prayer lists (again).   We really don’t want to leave.  I feel that I am just now making real friends.  We have found good doctors for all of our needs and especially with Connor’s new diagnosis.  We like it here.  But Hub is not at the best age to be out starting a new career.  Anyway, a job with the school district could really help.   Even if it doesn’t start until July. 

So much going on.   So much confusion.

Later.