Ups and Downs

This has been an incredibly up and down day. I went to work today. I do enjoy it most days, it gets me out, dressed decently, around nice people and a little pocket change. It was hitting me a little that Thursday will be my last day until next September. That was the good news and the bad. I'm looking forward to spending more consecutive days on a few projects (hopefully) and I do enjoy summer, but I will miss the people I see there.

Then there that thing about no one having a job in this family. Hub has had more depression lately about the whole situation. He's feeling pretty bad about himself and tired of me finding projects that he "has" to do right now. He's not much of a home improvement project kind of guy although I must say he is getting better. It's hard trying to keep things going in a positive mode. I feel bad because he has really been on my butt the last couple of days about anything and everything and tonight I let him have a little bit back. I was like don't get me started.... Anyway, I know he is just letting off some tension and flexing his male ego feathers, and I have worked at trying to be supportive, but I'm in this thing, too. Maybe I need to try to take it out here and not so much on him. He did get an e-mail from a company today that wanted to schedule an interview that could be interesting. Doesn't sound like it pays quite as much but it is worth looking in to. You wouldn't believe some of the companies that have contacted him. Some people may make a lot and be quite happy with some of these ventures, but I don't think it's for us.

We went to my son's last ballgame of the regular season tonight. They lost, but played a good game and it was fun. He made a home run, a double, and some really cool outs playing first base. It was enough to earn the game ball tonight so he was really proud. He had gotten one when we were in Mexico, so we were surprised that they awarded him another. They try to spread them around to encourage all the kids, but I have to say he did deserve this one. He wanted to go have Mexican food to celebrate, so that's what we did. Big surprise.

Later tonight, a neighbor and good friend called after we had played phone tag all day. We were talking about her MIL who found out a couple of weeks ago that she has a brain tumor. Her surgeon seems very certain that it is not malignant but it is suppose to be between a golf ball to tennis ball in size. Anyway, I have really been worried about her. MIL is having surgery in a week and we were making arrangements for my friend's kids to stay with us. We have gotten close to MIL and FIL, too, and have spent Christmas together and lots of sporting events for the kids. They are wonderful people and I just really hate that they have to go through this. Not only the pain and emotions of brain surgery, but on top of that scars, shaved head, etc. She is an attractive woman and always looks nice and takes care of herself. Anyway, keep her and her family in your prayers. I pray her surgeon is right.

After that my older son called. He is suppose to get out in June, but I know that sometimes it gets stretched out. He is so very homesick as we are for him. He was asking about different details about the house and his old room. Makes me wish we had not changed anything. It seemed like every painted room, etc. made him feel farther away. There will adjustments for all of us to have him back. It's been a hard year.

Well, on that cheerful note.....I need to go to bed. Tomorrow we get to go to Home Depot and find out what floor leveler is all about. After that maybe we can finally get the boys bathroom tiled. Hub has it all in a mess right now with the floor torn out. The cabinets are painted, but we need to put the doors back on and install new hardware. Me and my bright ideas......

Later.