I have to admit that there have been several times in 26-1/2 years of marriage that the thought of sending my husband packing didn't sound all that bad. Thank goodness we never got to that point (just right up to it). Today, we have started that process and I don't like it at all. It seems so strange to pack a box with the coffee grinder and his favorite coffee beans; go through the pantry for easy to fix things that he would like; put in his favorite throw to snuggle up with while watching TV and pack some family pictures. Anything to make sure that he doesn't have to go out for wings at Hooter's; but that's another story. :)
He's not even sure that he is taking the cat as he was looking forward to. He had talked to one agent at the apartments and she said that with a declawed cat that our refundable deposit will cover. Today when he called to confirm, someone else said that there was a $250 non-refundable deposit. The latter actually makes more sense from apartment living years ago, but still $250 is too much to lose right now. He's really disappointed. He may try to sneak her in, but then there is weekly maid service. (I should be so lucky!)
We have moved many times before and we have been through this type of separation, but those times I knew when it would end. We got word we were being transferred; put the house on the market; flew out and found a house within about 3 days and came back and waited for the movers to come. Time from notice to moving into a new home...about 6 weeks. This time it is open-ended. I don't know when we will move into a home together or even exactly where that home will be.
Anyway, this just seems so strange and wrong that I just had to put it into words. Thanks for listening...or reading.
Later.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Friday, January 1, 2010
Happy New Year!
Is anyone else out there happy to start a new year? I think God for every year we have, but some just seem more challenging than others. I really feel excited and hopeful that things will take some good turns in our lives in 2010. (Is that "twenty-ten" or "two thousand and ten"?)
This will definitely be a year of changes in our family. My son will get out of prison in July of this year. He doesn't have a clue of what he has ahead of him, but I will be beyond thrilled to have him out of there. This will bring a change in our family dynamics that probably won't be smooth, but at least we will be together. We may have lost him over 3 years ago to the judicial system but we truly lost him over 5 years ago to drugs. He has a lot of catching up to do.
We should also have our family together in another state. We still have a family that wants our home as soon as they can get theirs sold. They keep coming by wanting to show it off to family. I'm glad they are so thrilled over it, but please just buy the house all ready. I may have to start charging them admission. What was funny (except not to Hub) was that I finally got him to repaint the dining room to a more neutral color. Turns out that the lady of this family loved the green. I really should not have told Hub. I'll never hear the end of it. We haven't shown the house much during the holidays and hope for that to now pick up. First one here with money gets it!
We have never had such a quiet New Year's Eve. Our son was unexpectedly invited over to a sleepover and our friends that we usually get together with had a change of plans. It was just Hub and I in front of the TV in sloppy clothes. We never even popped open the bubbly. We did however make an ice cream run about 11:00. It was a good evening.
Actually, Hub and I have been a little sad this weekend. He will leave on Sunday morning to move into a corporate apartment 6 hours away. He has been flying out on Monday or Tuesday and flying back on Friday for the past 6 months. The company is pressuring him to go ahead and relocate. Now we will probably just see him every 2-3 weeks. It will be different when we are paying for it. I don't think all of this has really hit our son. He's going to miss Daddy so badly....as will I. Hub is planning on taking our cat with him. Isn't that funny? He just wanted something to come home to. I suggested he take the two dogs, too, but he will still have to be gone some overnights so that wouldn't work. Was worth a try. It's hard to show a house when you work and have pets. Pray that this is all over soon!
Speaking of work, I have to go back on Monday. I have been so bad about staying up late and then sleeping late the next morning. Reality may be hard. I'm so glad now that I took down all the Christmas decorations at school before I left. On another note, we are getting a new principal as ours has taken on a new school. This will be interesting. A new principal should be in place by February.
Who knows if anyone still checks here, but if you do, I just want to say thanks for sharing your lives. I've enjoyed your humor, your wisdom, and the thoughts you share that are sometimes hard. You've made me think and also to realize that we are all in this together. We all have a story.
To you and the ones you love, I really big Happy New Year Y'all!!
Later.
This will definitely be a year of changes in our family. My son will get out of prison in July of this year. He doesn't have a clue of what he has ahead of him, but I will be beyond thrilled to have him out of there. This will bring a change in our family dynamics that probably won't be smooth, but at least we will be together. We may have lost him over 3 years ago to the judicial system but we truly lost him over 5 years ago to drugs. He has a lot of catching up to do.
We should also have our family together in another state. We still have a family that wants our home as soon as they can get theirs sold. They keep coming by wanting to show it off to family. I'm glad they are so thrilled over it, but please just buy the house all ready. I may have to start charging them admission. What was funny (except not to Hub) was that I finally got him to repaint the dining room to a more neutral color. Turns out that the lady of this family loved the green. I really should not have told Hub. I'll never hear the end of it. We haven't shown the house much during the holidays and hope for that to now pick up. First one here with money gets it!
We have never had such a quiet New Year's Eve. Our son was unexpectedly invited over to a sleepover and our friends that we usually get together with had a change of plans. It was just Hub and I in front of the TV in sloppy clothes. We never even popped open the bubbly. We did however make an ice cream run about 11:00. It was a good evening.
Actually, Hub and I have been a little sad this weekend. He will leave on Sunday morning to move into a corporate apartment 6 hours away. He has been flying out on Monday or Tuesday and flying back on Friday for the past 6 months. The company is pressuring him to go ahead and relocate. Now we will probably just see him every 2-3 weeks. It will be different when we are paying for it. I don't think all of this has really hit our son. He's going to miss Daddy so badly....as will I. Hub is planning on taking our cat with him. Isn't that funny? He just wanted something to come home to. I suggested he take the two dogs, too, but he will still have to be gone some overnights so that wouldn't work. Was worth a try. It's hard to show a house when you work and have pets. Pray that this is all over soon!
Speaking of work, I have to go back on Monday. I have been so bad about staying up late and then sleeping late the next morning. Reality may be hard. I'm so glad now that I took down all the Christmas decorations at school before I left. On another note, we are getting a new principal as ours has taken on a new school. This will be interesting. A new principal should be in place by February.
Who knows if anyone still checks here, but if you do, I just want to say thanks for sharing your lives. I've enjoyed your humor, your wisdom, and the thoughts you share that are sometimes hard. You've made me think and also to realize that we are all in this together. We all have a story.
To you and the ones you love, I really big Happy New Year Y'all!!
Later.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Catching up...
I CAN NOT believe it has been so long since I last posted. I haven't fallen off of the world, but sometimes it has seemed like the world has been falling in on us. Pity party for one here. :) I've been reading all of your posts, but somehow just haven't had the inspiration to write anything. So much is going on with so many.
So just to catch up:
House still has not sold. In fact, it hasn't even been shown in a month until today. We have had so much rain and yucky days around here. This weekend has been gorgeous and we had an early showing with less than an hour notice. Whew! We have taken the price down to where we will lose a little of our investment just trying to make it move. Terrible time to be selling. Realtors say that there are just too many foreclosures. Our company wants us moved by the first of the year.
Seems pretty strange to be pushing to get the house sold, as I feel less and less like moving. I'm just really confused right now. Hub really likes his job and is getting lots of accolades for what he is doing. This is a great place for him professionally and I know that it really will be a good place to live. This is just taking such a toll on us as a family/couple right now. He has only been home two/three days a week for a long time now. It's getting really old. I'm feeling abandoned and he seems less comfortable and natural being his role of dad/hub. We are also seeing changes in our son now in both grades and attitudes. Some is just his age and natural changes but our circumstances are in there, too. It's hard on all of us. Even called the counselor that we use to see when things first started going so badly with our son. Decided that we needed to talk to someone. Found out that he had retired since we last saw him. You ever feel like Ziggy?
Things are going better at my work. It's busier than ever with ever-changing new technology coming in. In the past two weeks, I have had new cameras and two new security systems installed. One system required that I have a second complete computer at my desk. I am so totally wired. How many times have I moved the wrong mouse or grabbed the wrong keyboard!
I also feel a little better about my standing with administration. I work with some totally amazing people....and a couple of really childish witches. I was warned early on about one of them being a cancer in the staff and that the other had not got along others in my position. Didn't see it at that time but thought it was strange since the person telling me this had the authority to terminate. Anyway, the claws were really coming out and I had made the decision long ago not to let them have any power over me and to just ignore. I have to say that I'm a bit proud of myself that I have stayed on the high road. It also keeps you focused on your own work that has its own rewards. Well, a couple of weeks ago, I had to take off unexpectedly when my son was sick. We have all been there and I even came in for the morning since it was an especially busy day and short notice. The principal approved my leaving and thanked me for coming in. That Saturday, I received a nasty e-mail from her secretary letting me know how my leaving had inconvenienced her. It went on in great detail over the silliest things and ending with a happy face (???). I must have read that thing 25 times still not believing what I was reading. She even copied the principal. Anyway, I cooled my jets and Monday afternoon had a private meeting with the principal out of the office. She said that she was appalled when she received the e-mail; had been mulling it over the weekend, and had already had a meeting with the administrative staff. She had not been certain where some things were originating from in the office until then. She was very supportive and let me know that changes were going to be made. Some realignment took place the next day and the secretary was suddenly ill and absent from work for a day. Anyway, I really watch my back even closer which probably is good for efficiency at the end of the day. The "powers that be" have been super supportive and reassuring which of course makes me feel better.
My older son's birthmother did finally visit him. She called us after she got back and was really happy. Seems that it went well. At least she came back calling him by his given name instead of the nickname she had given him and kept calling him. Hub went down to see him this weekend so I will get my son's take on the visit tomorrow. Even when he was a baby, I thought about how it would be for us all to meet and I always promised him that I would be there to support him. Never dreamed this would be situation when it happened. Hopefully, all of this will help him answer questions of his heart that I know he has. Still it is a lot to handle. 9 more months.....
My younger son turned 12 recently and has started THAT change that kids go through. Wish I could just seal him up until this is over with. There was a social at his school last night and he had asked a girl to go with him (translates to hang out with him at the social). She says yes; then hangs out with her girlfriends wanting him to follow them around; texts him about "just being friends" (drama queen); son comes home in bad mood; goes immediately up to his bedroom and then stays up their sulking. His first of many heartbreaks. He doesn't have a clue.
Well it is late again. There goes the plans for an early bedtime.
Later.
So just to catch up:
House still has not sold. In fact, it hasn't even been shown in a month until today. We have had so much rain and yucky days around here. This weekend has been gorgeous and we had an early showing with less than an hour notice. Whew! We have taken the price down to where we will lose a little of our investment just trying to make it move. Terrible time to be selling. Realtors say that there are just too many foreclosures. Our company wants us moved by the first of the year.
Seems pretty strange to be pushing to get the house sold, as I feel less and less like moving. I'm just really confused right now. Hub really likes his job and is getting lots of accolades for what he is doing. This is a great place for him professionally and I know that it really will be a good place to live. This is just taking such a toll on us as a family/couple right now. He has only been home two/three days a week for a long time now. It's getting really old. I'm feeling abandoned and he seems less comfortable and natural being his role of dad/hub. We are also seeing changes in our son now in both grades and attitudes. Some is just his age and natural changes but our circumstances are in there, too. It's hard on all of us. Even called the counselor that we use to see when things first started going so badly with our son. Decided that we needed to talk to someone. Found out that he had retired since we last saw him. You ever feel like Ziggy?
Things are going better at my work. It's busier than ever with ever-changing new technology coming in. In the past two weeks, I have had new cameras and two new security systems installed. One system required that I have a second complete computer at my desk. I am so totally wired. How many times have I moved the wrong mouse or grabbed the wrong keyboard!
I also feel a little better about my standing with administration. I work with some totally amazing people....and a couple of really childish witches. I was warned early on about one of them being a cancer in the staff and that the other had not got along others in my position. Didn't see it at that time but thought it was strange since the person telling me this had the authority to terminate. Anyway, the claws were really coming out and I had made the decision long ago not to let them have any power over me and to just ignore. I have to say that I'm a bit proud of myself that I have stayed on the high road. It also keeps you focused on your own work that has its own rewards. Well, a couple of weeks ago, I had to take off unexpectedly when my son was sick. We have all been there and I even came in for the morning since it was an especially busy day and short notice. The principal approved my leaving and thanked me for coming in. That Saturday, I received a nasty e-mail from her secretary letting me know how my leaving had inconvenienced her. It went on in great detail over the silliest things and ending with a happy face (???). I must have read that thing 25 times still not believing what I was reading. She even copied the principal. Anyway, I cooled my jets and Monday afternoon had a private meeting with the principal out of the office. She said that she was appalled when she received the e-mail; had been mulling it over the weekend, and had already had a meeting with the administrative staff. She had not been certain where some things were originating from in the office until then. She was very supportive and let me know that changes were going to be made. Some realignment took place the next day and the secretary was suddenly ill and absent from work for a day. Anyway, I really watch my back even closer which probably is good for efficiency at the end of the day. The "powers that be" have been super supportive and reassuring which of course makes me feel better.
My older son's birthmother did finally visit him. She called us after she got back and was really happy. Seems that it went well. At least she came back calling him by his given name instead of the nickname she had given him and kept calling him. Hub went down to see him this weekend so I will get my son's take on the visit tomorrow. Even when he was a baby, I thought about how it would be for us all to meet and I always promised him that I would be there to support him. Never dreamed this would be situation when it happened. Hopefully, all of this will help him answer questions of his heart that I know he has. Still it is a lot to handle. 9 more months.....
My younger son turned 12 recently and has started THAT change that kids go through. Wish I could just seal him up until this is over with. There was a social at his school last night and he had asked a girl to go with him (translates to hang out with him at the social). She says yes; then hangs out with her girlfriends wanting him to follow them around; texts him about "just being friends" (drama queen); son comes home in bad mood; goes immediately up to his bedroom and then stays up their sulking. His first of many heartbreaks. He doesn't have a clue.
Well it is late again. There goes the plans for an early bedtime.
Later.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
That and this.
I'm going to borrow from a friend and just bullet this post. Seems a little how my mind is functioning these days.
* Still dizzy. Doc's office isn't open when I'm off and I can't seem to find a time at work to make a personal phone call. Seems to be a little less but still there. Hub actually got to see the eye action during a spell last night. Rather strange.
* First week of school and they finally installed a new phone system that was promised last year. It's really pretty neat except for the fact that it was full of kinks, nobody really knew how to work it (including me) and each tech is giving a different answer. I have lost more phone calls this week. I'm sure it will be fabulous...eventually.
* Also received a new computer tower this week. One problem though was that when they said that they would transfer everything, I thought they meant files, too. OOPS! I've been hunting all of my favorites that I take for granted.
* I feel like such a klutz! One night this week, I had my glass of water and was heading up to bed. My little shih tzu starting racing up and knocked me down. I caught myself on the stairs with my forearm and now it is still swollen and bruised. Slept with an ice pack all night. It will soon be a lovely shade of green.
* Sleeping with an ice pack was really a pretty good thing as the upstairs a/c went out that night. (I really think that our house is rebelling.) I called the repairman and made an appointment for late the next afternoon so that I wouldn't have to take a day of vacation. He came two hours early and our son was home alone with him. Didn't like that situation and then what he said was broken had already been replaced before. I told him to check with his office and call me. Instead he just replaced it and left me a bill for $264. Anyway, when I got off I went straight to the a/c office and visited with the owner. Nicest guy in the world. He was quite apologetic, tore up the bill and is sending a specialist out next week to make sure that we are all good. It doesn't get any better than that. He's my guy! :)
* Last week Hub was out of state on business. He actually was flying in and out of the city that my son's birthmom lives in. We didn't talk about it before, but I knew he would do it. He called her and went over to meet her. After 21 years, this is still so strange. She was thrilled. She even fixed him dinner and then he had her boyfriend take a picture of the two of them together and sent it to our son. He freaked out a little. Said that seeing his Dad with his birthmom and not me, just looked wrong. Anyway, we are all plowing through this new unknown territory.
* We are really re-thinking the move. Not sure how much choice we have, but we are not necessarily pushing the house to sell. So confusing. One day we think that the change is so good and we want to move and then the next day, it is a whole other story. Hub did hear from a colleague that another district manager may be leaving which would open up a district close to here. In fact, it is where we both lived when we met and we still have lots of friends there. He might not even have to move to take it. It's just a rumor and thought. I really have to turn this over and quite thinking about it.
Have a great week. I really miss my blog buddies that aren't writing as much. (Like I have room to talk.) Inquiring minds still want to know what's on your mind(s).
Later.
* Still dizzy. Doc's office isn't open when I'm off and I can't seem to find a time at work to make a personal phone call. Seems to be a little less but still there. Hub actually got to see the eye action during a spell last night. Rather strange.
* First week of school and they finally installed a new phone system that was promised last year. It's really pretty neat except for the fact that it was full of kinks, nobody really knew how to work it (including me) and each tech is giving a different answer. I have lost more phone calls this week. I'm sure it will be fabulous...eventually.
* Also received a new computer tower this week. One problem though was that when they said that they would transfer everything, I thought they meant files, too. OOPS! I've been hunting all of my favorites that I take for granted.
* I feel like such a klutz! One night this week, I had my glass of water and was heading up to bed. My little shih tzu starting racing up and knocked me down. I caught myself on the stairs with my forearm and now it is still swollen and bruised. Slept with an ice pack all night. It will soon be a lovely shade of green.
* Sleeping with an ice pack was really a pretty good thing as the upstairs a/c went out that night. (I really think that our house is rebelling.) I called the repairman and made an appointment for late the next afternoon so that I wouldn't have to take a day of vacation. He came two hours early and our son was home alone with him. Didn't like that situation and then what he said was broken had already been replaced before. I told him to check with his office and call me. Instead he just replaced it and left me a bill for $264. Anyway, when I got off I went straight to the a/c office and visited with the owner. Nicest guy in the world. He was quite apologetic, tore up the bill and is sending a specialist out next week to make sure that we are all good. It doesn't get any better than that. He's my guy! :)
* Last week Hub was out of state on business. He actually was flying in and out of the city that my son's birthmom lives in. We didn't talk about it before, but I knew he would do it. He called her and went over to meet her. After 21 years, this is still so strange. She was thrilled. She even fixed him dinner and then he had her boyfriend take a picture of the two of them together and sent it to our son. He freaked out a little. Said that seeing his Dad with his birthmom and not me, just looked wrong. Anyway, we are all plowing through this new unknown territory.
* We are really re-thinking the move. Not sure how much choice we have, but we are not necessarily pushing the house to sell. So confusing. One day we think that the change is so good and we want to move and then the next day, it is a whole other story. Hub did hear from a colleague that another district manager may be leaving which would open up a district close to here. In fact, it is where we both lived when we met and we still have lots of friends there. He might not even have to move to take it. It's just a rumor and thought. I really have to turn this over and quite thinking about it.
Have a great week. I really miss my blog buddies that aren't writing as much. (Like I have room to talk.) Inquiring minds still want to know what's on your mind(s).
Later.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Still a dizzy blonde.
I'm a working woman again. Having a bit more routine is good but tiring. I really thought that things would be a little smoother without the students. Silly girl!
It's been good to see everyone and also to see how many teachers are pregnant this year. Last year, I believe we had 7 babies. So far this year, we have 5 pregnant teachers including one who is having twins. All those years that I tried to get pregnant and who knew that all I had to do was become a teacher. (No cards and letters please. Just kidding.)
One thing I had not counted on was a new immunization schedule that so many parents have ignored until now. The local clinics are out of one of the vaccines and without it, students will not be allowed to start school. Automated calls have been going out and I have been fielding calls ALL day from upset parents who say this was the first that they knew about it. Of course there were several letters sent out LAST YEAR; signs on the entrances LAST YEAR; notices on the websites since LAST YEAR; articles in the newspapers since LAST YEAR, and it is now all over the TV. Now we get to personally call each family that has a student in non-compliance and remind them that their student will not be allowed to start school without the vaccines. Good luck in finding it! What a mess! I feel more sorry for the students that will be dropped off on Monday and told that they need to call their parents for a ride back home. The kids always feel so guilty and embarrassed themselves. This is one of those situations when I wish I worked in a back office and could hide.
I'm still having issues with vertigo. Thursday I had the "procedure" done which went off really pretty smoothly. I was not to lie down for 48 hours afterwards. I was a good girl....for most of that time. I slept in a recliner that night and early the next evening we left to see our son. We pulled into the hotel at 1 a.m. I had every intention of sleeping in the lounge chair, but when I looked at it... Anyway, I was really tired and decided that 36 hours had to be enough. I was delighted when I was not dizzy. Saturday night, I actually realized that I was looking up at the stars. Slowly, the dizziness is returning. I'm mad at myself and have to call the doc this week for a follow up. She had said up front that it sometimes takes two treatments, but I feel like I brought it on myself. Anyway, at least I have seen that it can work. That's a very good thing!
Later.
It's been good to see everyone and also to see how many teachers are pregnant this year. Last year, I believe we had 7 babies. So far this year, we have 5 pregnant teachers including one who is having twins. All those years that I tried to get pregnant and who knew that all I had to do was become a teacher. (No cards and letters please. Just kidding.)
One thing I had not counted on was a new immunization schedule that so many parents have ignored until now. The local clinics are out of one of the vaccines and without it, students will not be allowed to start school. Automated calls have been going out and I have been fielding calls ALL day from upset parents who say this was the first that they knew about it. Of course there were several letters sent out LAST YEAR; signs on the entrances LAST YEAR; notices on the websites since LAST YEAR; articles in the newspapers since LAST YEAR, and it is now all over the TV. Now we get to personally call each family that has a student in non-compliance and remind them that their student will not be allowed to start school without the vaccines. Good luck in finding it! What a mess! I feel more sorry for the students that will be dropped off on Monday and told that they need to call their parents for a ride back home. The kids always feel so guilty and embarrassed themselves. This is one of those situations when I wish I worked in a back office and could hide.
I'm still having issues with vertigo. Thursday I had the "procedure" done which went off really pretty smoothly. I was not to lie down for 48 hours afterwards. I was a good girl....for most of that time. I slept in a recliner that night and early the next evening we left to see our son. We pulled into the hotel at 1 a.m. I had every intention of sleeping in the lounge chair, but when I looked at it... Anyway, I was really tired and decided that 36 hours had to be enough. I was delighted when I was not dizzy. Saturday night, I actually realized that I was looking up at the stars. Slowly, the dizziness is returning. I'm mad at myself and have to call the doc this week for a follow up. She had said up front that it sometimes takes two treatments, but I feel like I brought it on myself. Anyway, at least I have seen that it can work. That's a very good thing!
Later.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
I have a screw loose.
It was medically confirmed today. I have a screw loose. That how my smart-mouth doctor put it. (Actually, I enjoy her smart mouth. She's fun.) The daily bouts of vertigo that started at end of June have continued. I finally had enough and scheduled an appointment. Truthfully, I have been a little scared to go. The way our lives have gone the last few years....well, you understand. My imagination had run away with thoughts of fitting in brain surgery.
Anyway, you go to the doctor and tell them about being dizzy when you lie down or move your neck up or down and what do they want? They want to see you really, really dizzy. That was easy enough to accommodate, but they almost got to see me really, really vomiting as well. I went there feeling fine and left there feeling like hell. So the diagnosis, in a nutshell, is that there are little crystals broken off from somewhere in my inner ear and are floating around to where they are not suppose to be, telling my brain that my world is spinning. (Hence the loose screw.) There is a name for all of this but I like my description better.
I go back tomorrow for a "procedure" that is suppose to direct those little suckers back to where they belong and if I don't lie down or bend over for 2-3 days, hopefully they will re-absorb. (The recliner will be my friend.) Then we get to go back in about a week and do it all again. Oh, boy! I have no idea how this "procedure" is actually done and I probably don't want to know until I'm there. She and the other doc were concerned that I wouldn't be able to tolerate the "procedure" because I got so sick today. They gave me a Valium to take before. Not only does it relax, it is suppose to be good for vertigo. I've never taken Valium before so if I get on the computer and start typing it up....please bear with me. A friend is driving me tomorrow and she is hoping for blackmail material.
After all of this today, I felt the need for some loving. So, I got a pedicure. :) I got to sit there and listened to this maybe 100-pound nail tech complain that she was so-o-o-o fat. I should of kicked her. I also got my brows waxed so that brought me back to reality.
So the jest of the day is:
1) My toes look good again.
2) I didn't hurt anyone today.
3) No one told me I had a brain tumor.
Twas a good day!
Later.
Anyway, you go to the doctor and tell them about being dizzy when you lie down or move your neck up or down and what do they want? They want to see you really, really dizzy. That was easy enough to accommodate, but they almost got to see me really, really vomiting as well. I went there feeling fine and left there feeling like hell. So the diagnosis, in a nutshell, is that there are little crystals broken off from somewhere in my inner ear and are floating around to where they are not suppose to be, telling my brain that my world is spinning. (Hence the loose screw.) There is a name for all of this but I like my description better.
I go back tomorrow for a "procedure" that is suppose to direct those little suckers back to where they belong and if I don't lie down or bend over for 2-3 days, hopefully they will re-absorb. (The recliner will be my friend.) Then we get to go back in about a week and do it all again. Oh, boy! I have no idea how this "procedure" is actually done and I probably don't want to know until I'm there. She and the other doc were concerned that I wouldn't be able to tolerate the "procedure" because I got so sick today. They gave me a Valium to take before. Not only does it relax, it is suppose to be good for vertigo. I've never taken Valium before so if I get on the computer and start typing it up....please bear with me. A friend is driving me tomorrow and she is hoping for blackmail material.
After all of this today, I felt the need for some loving. So, I got a pedicure. :) I got to sit there and listened to this maybe 100-pound nail tech complain that she was so-o-o-o fat. I should of kicked her. I also got my brows waxed so that brought me back to reality.
So the jest of the day is:
1) My toes look good again.
2) I didn't hurt anyone today.
3) No one told me I had a brain tumor.
Twas a good day!
Later.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Muddy Waters
I'm pretty scattered these days. Our house is on the market so I am doing the "perpetual cleaning dance". YUCK! We just got back from a house hunting trip. We found some good houses; each in a different city. We haven't found the "perfect" house, but there is one that is a favorite. We found the areas beautiful and the people really friendly. Hub is enjoying his work.
We are starting to feel apprehensive about the move. Surprisingly, we found the real estate to be quite a bit higher than where we are. I came back and looked up cost of living comparisons and the numbers confirm it, too. (Not sure why I didn't do that before.) We are planning on downsizing so somehow I thought that we could come out closer to even. Anyway, seeing what it is going to take to get a smaller, comparable house there is a little depressing. This is suppose to be our retirement house....someday.
Anyway, this is all a leap of faith. We have really felt good about it until now. I hate second guessing. It's unproductive. I think that having a new environment for our son to come home to will be a positive. Our home now has many happy memories, but it has some very bad ones, too. We all have been looking at this as a new start. So-o-o-o if the house sells immediately, I'm not sure what we will do. If it doesn't sell immediately, I'm not sure what we will do. Nothing like a big dose of indecision.
This is my last week at home before school starts for me. The kids have another week off. This summer has gone so fast. I'm really not ready for it to be over. It's not the work....it's just doing it for 8 hours a day that bothers me. ;) How will I fit it in?
We are going to see our son this coming weekend. That will be another 6 hours each way. I think my backside must be attached to a car. We have had so many car trips lately.
I'm anxious to see how he is doing. His birthmother was suppose to come see him for the first time this past weekend. She was driving from two states over and at the last minute she got a job for the weekend. As the saying goes..."she doesn't have a pot to piss in" and needed the money. What a place and situation to meet your birthmother. He was excited and she was, too. I'm sure he's hurt. I don't know if he got her letter that she couldn't come before the weekend. At 41, she is still a mess and sometimes we see the same thinking processes in our son. Scarey! I think she has a good heart, but no sense whatsoever. Our son gave her Hub's cell phone number so they have talked several times during the past 2-3 months. My son is trying to protect my feelings. (I did hear him call her Mom and truthfully that did hurt. He's in a tough place.) Actually, I am more afraid that she will show up on our doorstep wanting us to take her in. She made us a family and we will be eternally grateful for that. But she could be a disaster.
Well, that probably takes care of the highlights. I have been keeping up with everyone's blogs but haven't found a lot of words to write myself. My little mind is muddled. (That's a good word!) And maybe befuddled. (Better word!)
Later.
We are starting to feel apprehensive about the move. Surprisingly, we found the real estate to be quite a bit higher than where we are. I came back and looked up cost of living comparisons and the numbers confirm it, too. (Not sure why I didn't do that before.) We are planning on downsizing so somehow I thought that we could come out closer to even. Anyway, seeing what it is going to take to get a smaller, comparable house there is a little depressing. This is suppose to be our retirement house....someday.
Anyway, this is all a leap of faith. We have really felt good about it until now. I hate second guessing. It's unproductive. I think that having a new environment for our son to come home to will be a positive. Our home now has many happy memories, but it has some very bad ones, too. We all have been looking at this as a new start. So-o-o-o if the house sells immediately, I'm not sure what we will do. If it doesn't sell immediately, I'm not sure what we will do. Nothing like a big dose of indecision.
This is my last week at home before school starts for me. The kids have another week off. This summer has gone so fast. I'm really not ready for it to be over. It's not the work....it's just doing it for 8 hours a day that bothers me. ;) How will I fit it in?
We are going to see our son this coming weekend. That will be another 6 hours each way. I think my backside must be attached to a car. We have had so many car trips lately.
I'm anxious to see how he is doing. His birthmother was suppose to come see him for the first time this past weekend. She was driving from two states over and at the last minute she got a job for the weekend. As the saying goes..."she doesn't have a pot to piss in" and needed the money. What a place and situation to meet your birthmother. He was excited and she was, too. I'm sure he's hurt. I don't know if he got her letter that she couldn't come before the weekend. At 41, she is still a mess and sometimes we see the same thinking processes in our son. Scarey! I think she has a good heart, but no sense whatsoever. Our son gave her Hub's cell phone number so they have talked several times during the past 2-3 months. My son is trying to protect my feelings. (I did hear him call her Mom and truthfully that did hurt. He's in a tough place.) Actually, I am more afraid that she will show up on our doorstep wanting us to take her in. She made us a family and we will be eternally grateful for that. But she could be a disaster.
Well, that probably takes care of the highlights. I have been keeping up with everyone's blogs but haven't found a lot of words to write myself. My little mind is muddled. (That's a good word!) And maybe befuddled. (Better word!)
Later.
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